I owe all of my faithfuls an apology. This blog has become stagnant as I have tried to overcome my inner struggles and get back into the swing of being at home. It has been a hurdle that I haven't jumped lightly, but rather slowly am climbing over. But as always, our God is one mighty God and has provided for me once again in my desperation. Not that I am truly desperate right now but just incredibly lonely.
At the point that I struggled to get out of bed and just manage to do my routine chores, God brought a very special family into my life. My cousin's husband came to a local base for a 10 week training, so my house being God's house, has become a temporary home of my cousin and their beautiful toddling girl. They have been here for about two weeks and I am loving it. They are a strong christian family grounded in God's word and teaching. It is awesome. Not only do I have someone to relate to and share my thoughts with but someone to study God's word with and hold me accountable. Together, she and I are study God's plan for a wife and how to be that virtuous woman.
I do have to say that though God was gracious to them by providing them a way to not be separated, he was merciful to me by providing me with the companionship to get through this last leg of the deployment. I praise God. He is ever so faithful! He never ceases to amaze me.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Crumbling Point?
I know that at a certain point water begins to boil, so at what point does a person begin to crumble? Or at least a NAVY (or any military) spouse? We have about 3 1/2 months left on this deployment, which is not much. We are over the hump and on our downward spiral but with it is ME. What happened to me? I am usaully the strong one, able to hold things together and not show too much emotion but now I feel like I could collaps at any moment. Was it the releif from the tremendous amount of stress that I was under?
This blog is dedicated to the trials and triumphs of a military family, well here is a trial. DEPLOYMENT! I am tired of it. I am ready for my hubby to be home. I am ready to be annoyed by his familiar manly antics! I am ready do extra laundry, cook extra food, and lose precious sleep for the love of my life.
Okay, I feel better...hummm, what else is on my brain?
"Howard is a wonderful husband. He is a great daddy. He puts God first on the todem pole and then I rank second with the kids falling in behind. I love that. He repects that I need quiet time with God. He could cuddle for days and never leave the house if allowed the opportunity. He respects my body. He is a tremedously determined individual. He always goes back to finish what he started even if it takes 9 years. He has endured incredible suffering for his dreams. He is an honest man. He is tenderhearted. He is a warrior. He loved me when I was reckless and waited 8 years for me. He believes in me. He is my best friend and I am his. He trusts me. He lets me spend money. He loves to spend money on the kids and me. He is persistent. He is confident. He is incredibly sexy. He is MINE!"
I know I do not make much sense, I am heartbroken and lonely tonight, but yet there is peace...It's God.
This blog is dedicated to the trials and triumphs of a military family, well here is a trial. DEPLOYMENT! I am tired of it. I am ready for my hubby to be home. I am ready to be annoyed by his familiar manly antics! I am ready do extra laundry, cook extra food, and lose precious sleep for the love of my life.
Okay, I feel better...hummm, what else is on my brain?
"Howard is a wonderful husband. He is a great daddy. He puts God first on the todem pole and then I rank second with the kids falling in behind. I love that. He repects that I need quiet time with God. He could cuddle for days and never leave the house if allowed the opportunity. He respects my body. He is a tremedously determined individual. He always goes back to finish what he started even if it takes 9 years. He has endured incredible suffering for his dreams. He is an honest man. He is tenderhearted. He is a warrior. He loved me when I was reckless and waited 8 years for me. He believes in me. He is my best friend and I am his. He trusts me. He lets me spend money. He loves to spend money on the kids and me. He is persistent. He is confident. He is incredibly sexy. He is MINE!"
I know I do not make much sense, I am heartbroken and lonely tonight, but yet there is peace...It's God.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
A look at the past two months...
Wow, what an exhausting vacation, if you could even call it that. It has been a while since I have blogged and I am definately out of the swing of things just as you are all behind on my life's current events. So, I will paraphrase a summary...If I tried to recall it all at once, you are likely to have to stop reading half-way through to get on with your lives.
My last post was on December 1, 2008 telling of the wonderous move of God concerning my dad. I regret to inform you that he did later pass away on December 12, as did my grandmother on December 4.
Those two deaths alone was enough emotional turmoil for me but God had other plans for me. I dealt with a wealth of family animosity, gossip, and rivalry and amongst it all, I totalled my van. A dear ran out in front of me on December 8 and of course, those Texas deer do not have insurance...thankfully, I do. There was a lot more that happened during my stay that I do not have liberty to say on the internet, or at least I will show some respect for those who hurt me. I am not out to humiliate anyone but to be a light. And though I endured a lot, I do feel like God used me to show his mercy. He sustained me through it all and I am ever so thankful.
I will fill in gaps in later posts, but for now, just know that I am happy, healthy, and at home in Virginia! Praise God!
My last post was on December 1, 2008 telling of the wonderous move of God concerning my dad. I regret to inform you that he did later pass away on December 12, as did my grandmother on December 4.
Those two deaths alone was enough emotional turmoil for me but God had other plans for me. I dealt with a wealth of family animosity, gossip, and rivalry and amongst it all, I totalled my van. A dear ran out in front of me on December 8 and of course, those Texas deer do not have insurance...thankfully, I do. There was a lot more that happened during my stay that I do not have liberty to say on the internet, or at least I will show some respect for those who hurt me. I am not out to humiliate anyone but to be a light. And though I endured a lot, I do feel like God used me to show his mercy. He sustained me through it all and I am ever so thankful.I will fill in gaps in later posts, but for now, just know that I am happy, healthy, and at home in Virginia! Praise God!
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